Robert Macauley

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June 2025

Chehelam Press

“a luminous meditation on the beauty of life, even in its most wrenching moments.
A mix of plangent emotion and deep insights into end-of-life medicine, delivered in limpid, moving prose.”

Kirkus Reviews (starred review)

because I knew you

How Some Remarkable Sick Kids
Healed a Doctor's Soul
How Some Remarkable Sick Kids Healed a Doctor's Soul

Because I Knew You tells the stories of children facing life-threatening illness, from babies diagnosed before birth all the way through adolescence. They and their parents face incredible challenges with immense courage and devotion, inspiring doctors like Bob Macauley and showing them how much they have left to learn. For Bob, though, the work is personal: having survived abuse as a child, he dedicated his life to making sure that no other child hurt the way he did. After growing up in a world where people did things no one ever should, he found a home among people who loved more deeply than he thought anyone ever could.

All proceeds from the sale of this book go to support the pediatric palliative care program at Oregon Health & Science University, with a portion contributed to Darkness to Light, an organization dedicated to preventing child sexual abuse.